Girls drives me crazy.
I love my job because I get to be nice to people, make conversation and be social without them thinking I'm weird because I dont know them. This also means 1. I get to meet awesome people. 2. I get to observe people (creeeeoerrr) and 3. I GET TO HEAR THEIR CONVERSATIONS. (and the stupid embarrassing things they say).
There is one girl. And I love coffee houses because they are a great place for conversation, (and always have been, go take HORT306 Tropical Hort, it talks coffee house history) Last night I overheard her telling a man 'What love means to me." I was embarrassed for her.
And today, I'm here studying and I hear these two and the one says "...and thats why hes in this emotional crisis right now." Oh honey. I'm sorry but lets be real. Lets not confuse your emotions and feelings for his, because I highly doubt he would say hes in an emotional crisis. I almost lol'd. But that would be rude!
My manager just came over and threatened me with his fists because I texted him at 1:00a this morning asking where the feta was. Apparently its in the big white tub and I am ridiculous.
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Friday, January 27, 2012
Brown Eyed Girl - Green Day
7p on Friday night. Math lab. Statistics due at midnight.
I hate facebook so much. I dont care. I just dont care about your life. Why am I updated about it? I dont care.
How many days have I been wearing this shirt? It smells. It smells like vacation, when you're only allowed to bring one bag, so you only brought 3 t-shirts and maybe you didnt wear this shirt yesterday but you've worn it multiple days and you dont care until now.
I hate facebook so much. I dont care. I just dont care about your life. Why am I updated about it? I dont care.
How many days have I been wearing this shirt? It smells. It smells like vacation, when you're only allowed to bring one bag, so you only brought 3 t-shirts and maybe you didnt wear this shirt yesterday but you've worn it multiple days and you dont care until now.
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Daylight - Matt and Kim
Its official. I have been nominated into the PEACECORPS. Into SUB SAHARAN AFRICA with a tentative departure date of OCTOBER 2012.
During my interview my recruiter said there were still positions open for the end of the year but that I would probs be leaving early 2013. Nope.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKK. I cant believe this is really happening.
I had to look up a map of Sub Saharan Africa. Its pretty much all of Africa, minus the north.
While at Purdue I had a great friends names Carissa Jae McKay (her blog: http://www.throughsmokeandfire.blogspot.com/) she too was nominated into Sub Saharan Africa and then when the official invite came, she was invited to the Middle East, into some country I have never heard of and cannot spell.
This is the only thing I feel called to do. I think I was made for this. I do not question. At a Joshua House party last week I was telling one of the boys about it and he said,
"Do you think God is calling you into the PeaceCorps?" I forget what I said but he alluded to the fact that "Wow, what a test of faith. Wouldn't such an extreme call make you question? Falter? Doubt?" And honestly, no it doesn't at all. Theres nothing I've been more sure of, no direction I've been so drawn to.
It occurred to me this week while walking on campus. All the crap I hate about Purdue, (I love Purdue) but this whole time. The fact that I left and went to Ireland in search of something more. The fact that I've NEVER felt like I fit in to the Ag school and spent years trying...this is what its all been for.
THIS IS WHAT ITS ALL BEEN FOR. I'm going into the Ag sector and I have no idea what I'll be doing but it will most likely be education.
There are those on staff at Purdue that hate the different path. They want you out in four years. They want you to teach Ag. Education in Indiana. They want you here, and they've never understood my drive to be anywhere but. For a long time I've felt so misunderstood, too different for this community, and then bam, your dreams come true and it was all worth it.
I say this now. Talk to me in 10 months when I'm living in a mud hut with no electricity or running water.
During my interview my recruiter said there were still positions open for the end of the year but that I would probs be leaving early 2013. Nope.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKK. I cant believe this is really happening.
I had to look up a map of Sub Saharan Africa. Its pretty much all of Africa, minus the north.
While at Purdue I had a great friends names Carissa Jae McKay (her blog: http://www.throughsmokeandfire.blogspot.com/) she too was nominated into Sub Saharan Africa and then when the official invite came, she was invited to the Middle East, into some country I have never heard of and cannot spell.
This is the only thing I feel called to do. I think I was made for this. I do not question. At a Joshua House party last week I was telling one of the boys about it and he said,
"Do you think God is calling you into the PeaceCorps?" I forget what I said but he alluded to the fact that "Wow, what a test of faith. Wouldn't such an extreme call make you question? Falter? Doubt?" And honestly, no it doesn't at all. Theres nothing I've been more sure of, no direction I've been so drawn to.
It occurred to me this week while walking on campus. All the crap I hate about Purdue, (I love Purdue) but this whole time. The fact that I left and went to Ireland in search of something more. The fact that I've NEVER felt like I fit in to the Ag school and spent years trying...this is what its all been for.
THIS IS WHAT ITS ALL BEEN FOR. I'm going into the Ag sector and I have no idea what I'll be doing but it will most likely be education.
There are those on staff at Purdue that hate the different path. They want you out in four years. They want you to teach Ag. Education in Indiana. They want you here, and they've never understood my drive to be anywhere but. For a long time I've felt so misunderstood, too different for this community, and then bam, your dreams come true and it was all worth it.
I say this now. Talk to me in 10 months when I'm living in a mud hut with no electricity or running water.
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
I Wish I Could Change Your Mind - Ray LaMontagne
Tonight I completed the PeaceCorp application. Its been done for about a year but I've never submitted it, that is until tonight.
Tonight I sit on a bed set up in the "office" that was once my bedroom. Liza and the baby in one bedroom, Morgan in another, Mom and Dad in theirs and I in...mine.
Dad is backing up files on the compute in this office/...bedroom as I was completing the application.
"Dad, so I checked on this application that I don't care where in the world I go. But they give like eight different regions, so where would you go?"
"When did you get saved again?"
.
"...I don't really follow in years...summer after freshmen year I think?" I can tell you my time and place. I can tell you what I found was finally holding me back, I know it was 4th of July and at the Indy Youth Weekend. I do not know which day it was, the day or the hour. I just know it happened.
He said nothing. "Why? You think I'm gonna die over there?"
"I don't know!" Pause. He is flossing. He looks at me and raises his eyebrows. "What if we get raptured outta here?! I wanna see ya!"
Tonight I sit on a bed set up in the "office" that was once my bedroom. Liza and the baby in one bedroom, Morgan in another, Mom and Dad in theirs and I in...mine.
Dad is backing up files on the compute in this office/...bedroom as I was completing the application.
"Dad, so I checked on this application that I don't care where in the world I go. But they give like eight different regions, so where would you go?"
"When did you get saved again?"
.
"...I don't really follow in years...summer after freshmen year I think?" I can tell you my time and place. I can tell you what I found was finally holding me back, I know it was 4th of July and at the Indy Youth Weekend. I do not know which day it was, the day or the hour. I just know it happened.
He said nothing. "Why? You think I'm gonna die over there?"
"I don't know!" Pause. He is flossing. He looks at me and raises his eyebrows. "What if we get raptured outta here?! I wanna see ya!"
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Nicki Minaj - Fly
Moved back to Purdue tonight. I'm so happy to be here but saying goodbye is tough no matter what.
Theres an excitement in just being here, in this house. Shawty has a new boyfriend and he is the one, she was telling me about this as LaRawnda came in on her cell. She flashed her new engagement ring. It glitters.
Tonight is the first basketball game of the season.
Excitement.
Theres something about coming back to campus that makes you want to buy running shoes really bad. Maybe its because everyone is running, and at all times.
Also, I just really really enjoy being around so many boys my age. It is a very nice feeling. I really enjoy simply being surrounded by people my own age but there something about being separated from college aged boys that makes you all the happier to live among them again.
Theres an excitement in just being here, in this house. Shawty has a new boyfriend and he is the one, she was telling me about this as LaRawnda came in on her cell. She flashed her new engagement ring. It glitters.
Tonight is the first basketball game of the season.
Excitement.
Theres something about coming back to campus that makes you want to buy running shoes really bad. Maybe its because everyone is running, and at all times.
Also, I just really really enjoy being around so many boys my age. It is a very nice feeling. I really enjoy simply being surrounded by people my own age but there something about being separated from college aged boys that makes you all the happier to live among them again.
Monday, October 24, 2011
Her Morning Elegance - Oren Lavie
There is something about Oren Lavie that just makes my heart smile.
I've three days left student teaching.
Tonight I ran into my high school science teacher in the check out at Walmart he said "Did you know Christa (Somebody)? Did you know she works back in electronics? I just saw her."
"No I didn't know that! I didn't go back there." He smiled and nodded, "If you want to see people you went to high school with, come to Walmart." I smiled and nodded and the cashier girl chimed in "Ya I know! I always see people I went to high school with here!"
I smiled and nodded.
I've three days left student teaching.
Tonight I ran into my high school science teacher in the check out at Walmart he said "Did you know Christa (Somebody)? Did you know she works back in electronics? I just saw her."
"No I didn't know that! I didn't go back there." He smiled and nodded, "If you want to see people you went to high school with, come to Walmart." I smiled and nodded and the cashier girl chimed in "Ya I know! I always see people I went to high school with here!"
I smiled and nodded.
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
No Ones Gonna Love You - Band of Horses
Band of Horses is the only thing that makes me feel okay.
Teaching is wearing on me and I'm beginning to think I do not want to teach. I'm tired of them asking why. I said so thats why, now do it. And how many concussions can one team have? I feel like every freshman football boy has missed class due to concussions. I'm tired of excuses, their inability to manage time and their inability to read. Do you know how many high school students are reading at a third grade level? Its a lot.
Today the only time I smiled was at the end of the day when a bunch of non concussed freshmen came in talking about the Pokemon tournament going on in the cafeteria. "Only the coolest kids in school are going to be there!" Their excitement about Pokemon is the light I wish I had.
Teaching is wearing on me and I'm beginning to think I do not want to teach. I'm tired of them asking why. I said so thats why, now do it. And how many concussions can one team have? I feel like every freshman football boy has missed class due to concussions. I'm tired of excuses, their inability to manage time and their inability to read. Do you know how many high school students are reading at a third grade level? Its a lot.
Today the only time I smiled was at the end of the day when a bunch of non concussed freshmen came in talking about the Pokemon tournament going on in the cafeteria. "Only the coolest kids in school are going to be there!" Their excitement about Pokemon is the light I wish I had.
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