Men and the Moon

Was walking to Campus House tonight and was awed by the light of the moon. If you know me, you know I've got this...thing with the moon. We're not romantically involved or anything, I just think its amazing. I love when the moon casts shadows, theres a cool/creepy/awesome feeling about it. The sun wasnt near down and the moon was so huge, just there in the sky, jus chillin as if to say "This is nothing new AB, I always look this cool."

I come in late as usual and as we sing, and we worship...it just feels good and I love it. The Found feels good to, theres nothing like worshiping with people you truely love and love to be around. I love people at home church I just wish they'd learn my name. I've been in the same seat all my life and its been 20 years, I dont think thats asking too much. And there are a total of 20 people in church so.

At the Found today and Campus House as well I notice even more how much easier it is to reach my goals with help from God. I'm tired of seeing men and my first thought being of their ability to be my husband. It hits me sitting at Campus House watching the praise band rock out: When did these thoughts become okay? When did my goals go from "Hey you're so great, I'm glad to have you as my Brother in Christ" to "Wow you're talented AND love Jesus, lets have babies some day!" This is not ok, when did this happen? How and why? This thought has been in my prayers for a couple days and its increasingly easy to think more holy thoughts.

On a semi-related note: that couple was present in service. That couple who have to be touching at all times? I cant even hate okay, because thats a pretty fun feeling to be in that phase of a relationship. I couldnt help but think of the last annoying and awkward touchy feely couple. At the baseball game last season Evan and I observed and discussed a similar couple concluding that neither person involved had ever been liked or touched by the oposite sex and to finally have the opportunity is both overwhelming and mind altering. Awkward for all present.
...maybe that was unkind...unchristian, unloving or negative? ...I think not.

This blog could so many directions right here and theres so much to say but Genetics is stupid calling my name.